28th January 2010

I just turned 16 yesterday.
This year, I had 5 celebrations and 3 cakes.
Really wanna thank all those who celebrated my birthday with me as well as those who took the effort to send their wishes to me be it through sms or verbally.
Ironically, I'm really relieved and thankful that my birthday is over, because I know how tiring it was for those who had to plan my birthday celebrations and those who wanted to surprise me.
Must have been tiring for those around me to keep repeating "Happy Birthday!" whenever they saw me.
I'm really thankful for everything! Thank you JADDians especially!
But I just realised something as well.

28th Jan 2008, I collected my dad's ashes
28th Jan 2010, I went to Bishan columbarium to pay my respects to my beloved grandmother. It was her 1st year anniversary according to the Chinese calendar.
And both dates? Happen to fall on my birth date.




But still God I thank You for using these two lives to show me what unconditional love truly meant. (:

I need a renewed heart, let me depend on your strength Oh Lord.

Beautiful.

I FINALLY had the discipline to transfer the photos from the camera into the lappy.
And in the process of transfering photos(which includes the SC camp photos that gigi needed a long time ago, opps), I chanced upon alot of photos my mum, and brothers took in the countries they went to over the holidays. But I only paid more attention to the photos my oldest brother took in Japan, because they were astonishing! Really beautiful the sceneries and everything! I kop some out to show you!






Just wanted to blog a few, haha because I was really taken aback by these photos! I know it might not wow any of guys much, probably because you've been to these places countless of times or etc, but I haven't! Haha, I've only taken a plane once in my entire lifetime, but I'm not ashamed of it or anything! Haha, I give thanks just being able to see these beautiful photos and imagining myself to be there!
Oh and did I mention, that I really look up to my brothers(well 2) because they are financially independent enough at their age to save up and go on their own backpacking trips. Though yes, my mum still "sponsors" a little for their trip expenses, but the bulk of their expenses and tickets are paid by themselves.
And I just realised my mother and brother though they travel alot annually, but they never go to places in Europe, probably cause its too expensive I guess. But I do pray that one day they'll save up enough to go to these places, so I can have a viewing pleasure with the photos they bring back again~!
Haha, and I pray that I'll be like them in a few years time, save up, and just grab my bag with my basic necessities to go backpacking some day.

I don't know how to start this but when Agnes showed me her O level Art question paper and when I heard Xinru asking Isabel what question she was doing for her Art O level, the reality of O Levels honestly hit me instantly.
I mean I'm really already Secondary 4, I'm really really sitting for my O Levels in months' time.
I can still remember seeing how much my brother was struggling to study for his Os 3 years ago.
I can still remember my first day of secondary school, I spent recess outside the toilet.-_-!
And now, I'm really a Secondary four student and as a matter of fact, I'm also reaching 16 soon!
I think it was a good thing the school made the entire Sec4 cohort sit in hall to witness the Sec4s of 2009 collecting their O Levels results. It really made me go back to count and set my desired grades that I want to achieve for my O Levels.
I'm really happy for some of my close friends who got their distinctions for their O Level MT, but it didn't help making me feel flustered knowing that they've already secured 1 A1/A2 in their O Level cert already. I use the word flustered, because I don't know how to describe the way I felt.

Anyway,I still can't come to terms with the fact that I'm secondary four and taking O Levels soon.

Back to school

It's only the third day of school, but everything is already returning in full force.
I mean homework have already pilled up and with CCA and other school/ministry commitments, everyday its just like a non-stop race. A race against time.
The 1 word that I hear so frequently coming out from the mouths' of my subject teachers is the word "O-Levels" and all that our sec4 year is not a year for us to fool around etc.
It's just the first week, and every other teacher is placing so much emphasis on the national examinations that we're going to take in oct, nov?
It's our final year and our focus has definitely changed, its honestly no more playing, but serious studying.
It's ironic how much I see my classmates paying attention in lessons they never exactly paid attention to, it's ironic when I see how much I'm so dilligent in sitting myself down to do my homework at a regular table at a regular time every night.
But at the end of the day, I pray that I won't let my studies overwhelm me till I forget the reason of why I'm here on this Earth (:
Hold me accountable to that.

A fresh year, a fresh start

This might not be a post of substance, but these are the few pictures that I want to sum up my year with.


The old 6 Keys/.

Singapore Friendship Camp, my beloved Group 18 at Marina Barage.


Our last 7th Exco outing with alot of peeps missing;


& lastly, my beautiful ex North C.

You might have realised, that these are all jump shots.
The reason why I chose them to sum up my year is simple: 2009 has been an incredibly fun and "family" year.
And my only greatest wish for the new year is that 2010 will not just be a fun, "family" year, but also a year full of quality and new faces.
I thank You Lord for 2009, now it's time to march into 2010 with You.
Amen.

At the end of the day, is this all it comes down to?
God, where are youuuuuu